Cracked Foundations
Kerri Hummingbird spent a significant portion of her childhood in therapy. By the time she was five, Kerri felt insecure and unworthy due to two abusive father figures and a mother who, despite her best intentions, wasn't supporting her properly. Though she learned a lot of valuable tools in therapy, Kerri still felt the aftershocks of her childhood trauma. Sadly, very early on she felt broken and believed she needed to “fix herself.”
Eventually, Kerri discovered the power of energy which lead to self-sovereignty. This was something Kerri wasn't able to access from therapy and it was a whole new world.
Stairway to Heaven
Kerri doesn’t point to an event when she describes her mindset change. Eventually, she sought alternative forms of self-healing. She was no longer willing to let other's decide her truth.
Through alternative therapies such as shamanic healing, she came to understand that the boundaries through which she defined her personhood were more malleable than she ever imagined. “I was not what I thought I was,” she explains. “I realized, ‘I am not one thing. I’m a bunch of energy. I can decide what stays and what goes, I can track it, I can look within, I can find bugs in the software, take it out… All of a sudden I became the programmer of my own consciousness.” She felt empowered when she shifted her focus from healing her “self” to healing her energy body.
Heart of Darkness
The process of healing her energy body included exploring her deepest fears about herself. She entertained and embraced descriptor words that once brought her shame and dread, like “crazy.” Maybe I am crazy, she thought to herself, but that’s okay. She made a concerted effort to let go of other people’s standards and expectations by changing her mindset. Thus began her journey towards self-sovereignty.
The Road to Self-Sovereignty
Though all of these realizations changed her life for the better, Kerri emphasizes that the healing process is an eternal one. “There’s no ‘set it and forget it,’” she says. To keep herself grounded in her own conscious healing process, she “opens sacred space.” To do this, she uses a ritual inspired by the Lakota cosmology of Four Directions that’s meant to bring her mind out of one state of consciousness into another. She also consults the spirits of her ancestors, a practice inspired by American, African, and Asian cosmologies. (A good place to begin your own healing process is through Kerri’s Love Mastery Game, a free program that invites us to explore spiritual healing).
Learn more about Kerri
Are you seeking self-sovereignty? Kerri Hummingbird thinks of herself as a door opener, who helps people unlock what they want in life. She is a soul guide, shamanic healer, and an inspirational speaker. She is also the author of several books, including The Second Wave, Awakening to Me, and From We to Me. On her podcast, Soul Nectar Show, she speaks with “awakened human beings” who share their journeys of awakening. The show is available wherever you listen to podcasts. She is based in Austin, Texas, where she lives with her family.